So today is April 13,2010

i just read my freakin blog..yes..wow..i wrote a lot xD. Anyways..theres more going on now..its hard..lifes complicated…

April 3,2010

i am officially taken by this great guy named Ryan Michael Donovan. Hes sweet and stuff but kinda taking it to fast. Hes writing me a song right now.Hes taking his time. He loves singing. We have so many things in common.One thingt is, hes obsessed with me,and i dont know what to do…..SHIT!!!!!!

April 11, 2010

I told Rick off…well..i told him how i felt. I got everything off my chest and i actually felt better, one thing was…he cried and  i cried a bit myself. I felt bad. I mean we never argued like this. It was very dramatic in a way, Depressing. Wow. very depressing, He sent me tons of voice messages, It was like messages after messages. I couldnt even catch up with it. I didnt know what to do. It was hard for me. I lied to him that i loved him more. why? Well  because i hate hurting people. But then it also feels good. He might hate me if he ever reads this. I told him i could live without talking to him. Its true. I can. I mean ive gone through a whole week without talking to him. Now that i see it. Ever since i told him how i felt, its like he wants to talk to me more. But before that, he forgets to text me or even talk to me. I mean come on. Im right there. You can talk t me anytime at all. Its not that hard.

April 12,2010

I came home from school and well, i had two voice messages from Rick. He needed me.

So heres how it went. He just got more heartbroken cause the chick he was going to get with didnt trust him. His ex gf  Nikki, didnt want him either. She broke his heart. Bianca didnt trust him and so yeah. It was hard for him. I mean i tried to help you know? He didnt tell me much but He told me something like he doesnt even know what to do in life anymore I told him he could do way much better than them. I told him not to ever say that because as you know everyone! theres more to life than just love. :] so yeah. After the talk. I tried to calm him down but he couldnt calm down. I didnt really know what to do.. but i was also cooking at the same time. Food almost got burnt. But its oksy. So yeah i told him i had to go eat and ill talk to him later, i texted him.”Hey im gonna go eat so ttyl. DONT DO ANYTHING STUPID CAUSE YOU KNOW ILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU…he texted back ill try anf that was it. So when i think of it, its hard. I mean if i have to break another heart i would. But its also gonna make me feel bad..so im not gonna do it. Its really hard when it comes to rick. I mean id take a bullet for him. id walk miles and miles to trace his footsteps. Everything :[ . i dont know whats wrong with me.

What do you think??? Well….Strangers.. start commenting :[

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