My love for singing

Jun 17

My love is my mind
My mind is my soul
My soul is my heart
My Heart is singing
I love my singing
It kills me when i cant
I love when i sing
It shows i am only like the rest.
Wrong.
I will never be like the rest
Singing is my life, My passion, My heart.
No.
I am singing.

And singing is me.

Pilot Blog

Feb 8

Ah, welcome. It seems as tho you have came across my first blog. In this I will just let you in my life a little, and right now its a little crazy. Me and my boyfriend of 7 months have recently split. I have like 7 guys trying to be with me. Boyfriend claims to want me back. Not complicated enough? Two guys who are “in love” with me are cousins. Lovely. Ugh. All I want is my boyfriend back. We were at one point we were engaged but my ring was stolen from his car. Not important tho. The important thing is that my heart is crushed. I fell back into old habits and cut myself. Not something I am proud of or flaunt but you don’t know me so what’s the harm. If anyone else has this problem maybe we can talk. Anywho, there is a guy I like. He’s from the town I moved from recently but now he is three hours away and works and sleeps all the time. Not exactly what I want. I know I’m young and have plenty of time to find true love, but is it too much to ask for a meaningful long term relationship? Ah, what will I do? For now, I shall go. Leave comments or whatnot please. This is my first post and well any feedback is good feed back.

-Ellie

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BGT

Nov 30

i really want to go on BGT but i cnt cos i got my exams :( and my muum wont let me miss them :( what do i do?

Wednesday: Back at college!

Sep 2

Nothing to be excited about the ” ! ” but i was back at college yesterday morning at 8.00. I must add to this that in the morning it dragged but in the afternoon it was quicker than i thought, but still i don’t like college what so ever so i thought to myself ‘why can’t we stay at home and go back on Monday like every other school does whats the point in being stuck in college when there is only Thursday and Friday left.’  So i stopped ranting on and got on with it all. However, i didn’t expect alot of new people to arrive at the college because i pleasenty surprised as i thought the older ones would go to another college as this one that i am in now is currently a main stream college at the moment.

So… tomorrow (Friday) is the last day of the week by the weekend woohoo! And then it starts all over again on Monday morning, anyway i hope you’ve enjoyed reading my first blog post and i’ll see you all soon :D

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Things have changed….

May 25

i thought it was going to last… but i guess not….

So Ryan and i broke up..were no longer with each other….Rick is with someone else.. Ryans with a gi named Lena…Beautiful name…i dont know if shes beautiful though…he thought i was ignoring him..i wasnt at all…the prob was..my sister didnt want me to message or talk to anyone.. i felt bad but….oh well..i guess life is life…im pretty much down…depressed..and when im depresssed..all i can do for myself is t listen to music and starve myself..

Im listening to paramore right now and wow!!! i love this band…it keeps me from doing something like carving or cutting myself…

having someone with my ex that i was recently with gets me jealous…i dont know why…is that how everybody is if yyou love them?

i cant think straight. i dont know what to do at all..im confused…i feel like punching and yelling until i cry…

idk………… anyone….comment and help? please… :(

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